There are two kinds of people: ones who dread change and those who invite it.
-Geetika Saini
Some people yearn for a shift in their lives, while others like to revel in the fixed pattern of theirs. Which one are you?
Of late, I have belonged to the former cohort.
Since the onset of covid-19, things have been taking a toll on the customary lifestyle of people. At the outset, it swung the world upside down and capsized the dinghy; however, a wave of quotidian routine has been sweeping the society ever since people grew accustomed to the chaos. It is human nature — you adapt to what once was unfamiliar.
My problems arose when this adaptation metamorphosed into boredom. It’s not like I don’t have things to do or that I am an idler, but the monotony has quashed my stick-to-itiveness. Initially, the confinement helped curb the tensions, but it became tedious over time and overbearing, eventually. Although I have never been averse to the idea of following routines and timetables, adopting a perfunctory attitude to something that used to be fun can be dispiriting at times.
To tell you the truth, despite my love for routines, I have never been rigid, and as a firm believer in “everything in due time”, I always try to bend in accordance with the circumstances. However, sometimes it isn’t enough and you need a definitive upshot especially when things have been functioning a certain way, sans much explicit progress, because that is when the vicious cycle of self-doubt begins and it amplifies all those misgivings that were once mere nerves. At a time like this, even a smidgen of change augurs well for an imminent future. After all, don’t we all accept that “whatever happens, happens for the best’’? Or are we hoodwinked into acquiescing to the adage?
Regardless, an aberration is never a welcomed phenomenon and it would disturb me immensely if things were to take a quantum leap or if my life underwent a radical shift within a week, but a modicum of change wouldn’t hurt. Is that too much to ask? I don’t believe so. In fact, my desire is well founded and justified. I’ll tell you how.
Philosophically speaking, earlier, I barely paid heed to my inner self and was utterly oblivious of the immaterial aspect of my being, yet the kind of spiritual growth that I have witnessed within myself for the last couple of years is unprecedented and it makes me happy to be able to realize that. Nevertheless, it is still abstract and I am hankering for it to translate into something concrete.
My best friend often complains about the lack of ‘masala’ in her life although she loathes the changes when they happen — it is the idea of change that pleases her more than the change itself. And yes, it is highly likely that I might not enjoy ‘the shift’ as much as I believe I would, but at least it would be something to write home about.
Hence, as I affirm my belief that I deserve some change, I rest my case. In the hope that this much-needed change comes to me soon and that I will be cognizant enough to seize it when it does, I’ll discover my disposition.
